i'm done...
i'm done, finished, buttoned up, completed, ended, over with, spent, terminated, wraped up with, exhausted, concluded, depleted, done with, all over with, compassed, rendered, through.
these are the words that explain that i am done with this pain. i'm done crying over you, done feeling bad, done thinking that i should have done things differently. i'm tired of crying, of wasting my tears on a person that just doesn't seem to care, on a person that can just can turn their emotions on and off like a light switch. done. thats it. its not something that i choose to be...its something i have to be for my own mental stability. i want the thoughts of you and i out. i want feelings for you out. i want you out of my mind. i want out, because it just hurts too much. i can't live with this pain. i can't live with the heartache you caused. i need to be strong for me.
ohh how i wish this wasn't the answer - but it seems like the only thing and this past weekend proved it more than anything...i want to keep this alive, these feelings i don't want to release - i want them to stay where they are...you made me happy, happier than any other...but it seems to mean nothing any more. my mother, my confident, the only one that knows, tells me to be optomistic, but i can't afford to go throught this heartach...its breaking me up...distroying this once all round happy person...is now tinted with blackness, where once all was bright.
you know i write this all and want this to happen...to get over you, but i know deep down inside it will never be...you will always have a part of my heart, for you were the first one that i ever really cared this way about, you were the first i could call my special someone...but somewhere something went wrong, but you are the only one that knows what it was. why can't you come to me and tell me? why can't you just explain...help me understand??
why does this hurt so much for me???
the hurt must go away, and i have to let it leave...have to learn to live again...get you out of my head...it has to be so...it has to be done.
these are the words that explain that i am done with this pain. i'm done crying over you, done feeling bad, done thinking that i should have done things differently. i'm tired of crying, of wasting my tears on a person that just doesn't seem to care, on a person that can just can turn their emotions on and off like a light switch. done. thats it. its not something that i choose to be...its something i have to be for my own mental stability. i want the thoughts of you and i out. i want feelings for you out. i want you out of my mind. i want out, because it just hurts too much. i can't live with this pain. i can't live with the heartache you caused. i need to be strong for me.
ohh how i wish this wasn't the answer - but it seems like the only thing and this past weekend proved it more than anything...i want to keep this alive, these feelings i don't want to release - i want them to stay where they are...you made me happy, happier than any other...but it seems to mean nothing any more. my mother, my confident, the only one that knows, tells me to be optomistic, but i can't afford to go throught this heartach...its breaking me up...distroying this once all round happy person...is now tinted with blackness, where once all was bright.
you know i write this all and want this to happen...to get over you, but i know deep down inside it will never be...you will always have a part of my heart, for you were the first one that i ever really cared this way about, you were the first i could call my special someone...but somewhere something went wrong, but you are the only one that knows what it was. why can't you come to me and tell me? why can't you just explain...help me understand??
why does this hurt so much for me???
the hurt must go away, and i have to let it leave...have to learn to live again...get you out of my head...it has to be so...it has to be done.
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