what sucks is this, and nothing more...
You know what sucks the most? It's when guys like you a lot...and they push themselves on you...talk to you everyday, call you on the phone, and even come to your damn house to surprise you. And the funny thing is, at first you don't even like the guy...you just think he's cute...and leave it at that -but maybe not even that - you might think he's weird. But nonetheless he pushes himself so much on you that you end up liking him so much. Then all of a sudden a weekend goes by and its like you've f**kin never met. He doesn't talk to you unless you talk first...he gives you some excuse about why he just "wants to be friends" and its as if all those "feelings" he claimed to have for you just disappeared into thin air.
Meawhile, you're sitting here in front of the computer, and by the phone thinking...maybe today he will say something...maybe today he will explain that its as hard on him as it is on you, that he still cares but just needs to sort things out. You keep hoping maybe this time he'll say something first...maybe this time he will message you. You keeping secretly hoping...praying that he will just come to his senses and tell you. But deep down inside you know it won't happen, you know its too late for the both of you, you know it's over...that he just played you like a damn fool - played with your feelings, and most importantly played with your heart; but you don't want to believe it. You want to keep that hope alive, hold that brave front...keep thinking that that day will come when the fog will be cleared and things will be back to their original state. Because you know as soon as you think otherwise you will never be the same. That a piece of heart will be broken off and and will never be put back into its rightful place...because it broke and left when he did. You know that as soon as you believe it, reality will kick in and you will be soon alone again with your tears in your bed...with noone by your side but you shadow and the memories of the time spent together - no matter how short that time was, it ment the world to you.
And it's as simple as that...nothing more can suck or hurt as much...nothing.
Meawhile, you're sitting here in front of the computer, and by the phone thinking...maybe today he will say something...maybe today he will explain that its as hard on him as it is on you, that he still cares but just needs to sort things out. You keep hoping maybe this time he'll say something first...maybe this time he will message you. You keeping secretly hoping...praying that he will just come to his senses and tell you. But deep down inside you know it won't happen, you know its too late for the both of you, you know it's over...that he just played you like a damn fool - played with your feelings, and most importantly played with your heart; but you don't want to believe it. You want to keep that hope alive, hold that brave front...keep thinking that that day will come when the fog will be cleared and things will be back to their original state. Because you know as soon as you think otherwise you will never be the same. That a piece of heart will be broken off and and will never be put back into its rightful place...because it broke and left when he did. You know that as soon as you believe it, reality will kick in and you will be soon alone again with your tears in your bed...with noone by your side but you shadow and the memories of the time spent together - no matter how short that time was, it ment the world to you.
And it's as simple as that...nothing more can suck or hurt as much...nothing.
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