dead letter...
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Don't look at me, don't say my name, or even think about me, and don't even try to speak to me. What gives you the right? Just look at me now and see what you have caused, you have put me through so much hurt and played so many mind games with me. And when someone does this to you don't come crying to me because I won't be there, don't ever ask yourself why it's happening to you. Just look at what you have done to me and that will be your answer.
i find this quote so perfect to this situation, sure when i see you online, or i see you in the crowd, i have this hope -this false hope i may add, that you might talk to me and say sorry for breaking me apart like you did or tell me what really happened and why the hell this couldn't work. sure i still have this hope...but i feel it growing weaker and weaker as the days go by, as i soon start to get you out of my mind, as the image of you in my mind and my heart grows dimmer and slowly fades away.
i have hope, i have the hope that you will be some distant memory and pain in my mind and heart, that i will never want to re-open. i see this happening and this emotion over comes me...i wouldn't say it's happiness, or joy..but its something so strong and pure...perhaps relief, i don't know.
i don't think you will ever grasp how much you hurt me and how much i cared...i don't think you will ever understand. you know i just wish i could get you alone in a room, and just be able to speak my mind, and tell you how i feel; but i can't...i wouldn't be able to look you in the eyes and tell you how my heart aches - i think if i were to try i would just break down and and simply cry. you know if this happend to me lets say about 3 years ago, i would have done it, and without a single tear spilt...its just i've grown so weak and so emotionally sick - i can't handle the smallest things anymore, without breaking down indside.
i wish you could feel this...feel this pain within me, but what good will that do? that won't make things right...won't even take the pain away. but i hope one day that you will understand what you did...and say sorry. thats all i want, nothing more. i want you to say sorry and really mean it...say sorry and understand what you caused. its that simple. but the thing is, i doubt you ever really will.
andrea
Don't look at me, don't say my name, or even think about me, and don't even try to speak to me. What gives you the right? Just look at me now and see what you have caused, you have put me through so much hurt and played so many mind games with me. And when someone does this to you don't come crying to me because I won't be there, don't ever ask yourself why it's happening to you. Just look at what you have done to me and that will be your answer.
i find this quote so perfect to this situation, sure when i see you online, or i see you in the crowd, i have this hope -this false hope i may add, that you might talk to me and say sorry for breaking me apart like you did or tell me what really happened and why the hell this couldn't work. sure i still have this hope...but i feel it growing weaker and weaker as the days go by, as i soon start to get you out of my mind, as the image of you in my mind and my heart grows dimmer and slowly fades away.
i have hope, i have the hope that you will be some distant memory and pain in my mind and heart, that i will never want to re-open. i see this happening and this emotion over comes me...i wouldn't say it's happiness, or joy..but its something so strong and pure...perhaps relief, i don't know.
i don't think you will ever grasp how much you hurt me and how much i cared...i don't think you will ever understand. you know i just wish i could get you alone in a room, and just be able to speak my mind, and tell you how i feel; but i can't...i wouldn't be able to look you in the eyes and tell you how my heart aches - i think if i were to try i would just break down and and simply cry. you know if this happend to me lets say about 3 years ago, i would have done it, and without a single tear spilt...its just i've grown so weak and so emotionally sick - i can't handle the smallest things anymore, without breaking down indside.
i wish you could feel this...feel this pain within me, but what good will that do? that won't make things right...won't even take the pain away. but i hope one day that you will understand what you did...and say sorry. thats all i want, nothing more. i want you to say sorry and really mean it...say sorry and understand what you caused. its that simple. but the thing is, i doubt you ever really will.
andrea
4 Comments:
i really think you should send him this letter. let him know all the pain he has caused. maybe he will re-think all what he has done, and possibly save another person being hurt by this one fella.
I think it really sucks how people can cause so much damage to someones heart and not even care...when these people have the same thing they dont even recall the time that they did it to someone else and thats a sad part about it. Ive had a situation in the past that was really bad for my emotional state. Its not a nice feeling but it eventually goes away. I hope you dont have to feel the pain you are having much longer just keep a positive attitude and things will get better hopefully.
thanks to both anonymous', i'll think about what you both said.
thanks again.
Whatever you decide to do just make sure you do it for yourself and not for someone else.
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