so this is christmas?
you know since i was a little girl, who didn't know any better...i loved christmas. i would rejoice at the fact that it was december. i would be full of christmas spirit. maybe it was the fact that i believed in santa, or the fact that i got loads of presents...i donno maybe it was because i didn't know better. i think it was all three put together.
christmas for me has become a shame...a waste of money, time, effort...a hastle. over the years christmas has become less about the birth of Jesus, and more about money. it (christmas) has become a gigantic commerical event. everyone is about buying presents and getting presents...no one is rejoicing at the birth of Jesus...simply put, no one gives a damn.
when has it gotten this bad? where have we lost the true meaning of christmas? when did we get this way? i'm not saying that we are all like this...that we have all forgoten what this time of year means...no far from it. all i'm saying is that year by year more and more of us are forgetting what christmas really means...why we are celebrating it.
i think i lost faith in christmas because i turn on the news, and right there in front of me it says...someone killed - on christmas?? what's wrong with us? i will never forget the christmas' of past...where everything was good for at least one day...where everyone stopped and thought of our saviour being born. that will always stay in my memories.
this year i must say christmas for me is dead. i don't really know why. it just doesn't feel like christmas...i know, its sad...i've gone from the little girl that adored christmas, to the young lady that just doesn't feel it anymore. not to get you wrong or anything, i wish i still loved christmas, i wish i felt christmas in me again, like i used to. i wish christmas was what it used to be. but i can't change who a am, and who i've become. and if who i've become doesn't care for christmas anymore..well then thats me. i will always think of christmas as the birth of Jesus...but my joy, the joy i once had will not be there...and thats a fact of life i have to accept.
christmas for me has become a shame...a waste of money, time, effort...a hastle. over the years christmas has become less about the birth of Jesus, and more about money. it (christmas) has become a gigantic commerical event. everyone is about buying presents and getting presents...no one is rejoicing at the birth of Jesus...simply put, no one gives a damn.
when has it gotten this bad? where have we lost the true meaning of christmas? when did we get this way? i'm not saying that we are all like this...that we have all forgoten what this time of year means...no far from it. all i'm saying is that year by year more and more of us are forgetting what christmas really means...why we are celebrating it.
i think i lost faith in christmas because i turn on the news, and right there in front of me it says...someone killed - on christmas?? what's wrong with us? i will never forget the christmas' of past...where everything was good for at least one day...where everyone stopped and thought of our saviour being born. that will always stay in my memories.
this year i must say christmas for me is dead. i don't really know why. it just doesn't feel like christmas...i know, its sad...i've gone from the little girl that adored christmas, to the young lady that just doesn't feel it anymore. not to get you wrong or anything, i wish i still loved christmas, i wish i felt christmas in me again, like i used to. i wish christmas was what it used to be. but i can't change who a am, and who i've become. and if who i've become doesn't care for christmas anymore..well then thats me. i will always think of christmas as the birth of Jesus...but my joy, the joy i once had will not be there...and thats a fact of life i have to accept.
1 Comments:
Thanks for the honesty. You expressed it really well. I tried to say the same thing today, in my blog, but it didn't come out nearly as clearly. Please know you're not alone. I've felt the same way all month. Christmas is nearly over and I'm still not ready for it. But as I've worked through the conflict, of wanting to preserve Christmas while accepting its death, I've realized it's not a fact of life. The joy we long for and once found in Christmas is still out there. It's been stolen from Christmas but it's still out there. That's why we all journey: to find it again. So, don't give in; keep looking. I promise it's out there.
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