i lay here and i know that God has a plan for us all, but sometimes i wonder what is mine? what does God have up His sleeve for me?

what is His master plan for andrea?

and why does it have to go on this path? this path full of pain, heartache and sickness, why?

can i just have a glimpse, just a little peek of whats in store for me? so that maybe - just maybe i can understand all this that's in front of me now.