blowing out the candles...
well i turned 19 today. i am officially an adult, a woman in the eyes of society. but to tell you the truth i don't really feel all that different, and things really haven't changed all that much. sure now i won't feel that exhilaration when trying to get into a place that is 19+ or buying alcohol, and i think i'll miss that rush and that risk if i get caught.
all that comes with being 19 is security.
you are not legal to drink, buy cigarettes [if need be], get into bars/clubs. options have officially opened, yet things have not changed. i'm still the andrea i was yesterday at 18. yet people still ask so how does it feel to be 19? uhh the same?? i'm still the andrea that is as confused as ever about school, guys, work, God - life in general. i still have the same questions, still constantly saying sorry, assuming the worse and holding my family together. i'm still the andrea that keeps writing in her blog, even though obvious lack of talent is a given. i'm still the same person that takes stupid risks like telling people she likes them, then regretting it, and then in the end being proud of myself and how i took a big leap. still the same old me that acts like a goofball, that wears her heart on her sleeve and that will never understand why guys ask "what's you sign?", as if it really will matter and make a difference if you are compatible zodiac wise or not.
i'm still me, but society has labeled me an adult. one who is now old enough to marry, finish school and give back to society. one that should have many many more responsibilities, as if getting older in age is the same as mentally maturing. 19 or not, i still act like a 12 year old, still party because i'm young and make an ass out of myself because i can. the only difference now is everything i do is legal as opposed to drinking under age.
happy birthday to all you out there, and remember age makes no difference, its just a way so society can brand you and control your actions better.
but all this talk aside, it must have been the best birthday ever!! haha great night with friends all around, great music and a bit too much to drink!!! thanks to everyone who helped me celebrate!! =)
all that comes with being 19 is security.
you are not legal to drink, buy cigarettes [if need be], get into bars/clubs. options have officially opened, yet things have not changed. i'm still the andrea i was yesterday at 18. yet people still ask so how does it feel to be 19? uhh the same?? i'm still the andrea that is as confused as ever about school, guys, work, God - life in general. i still have the same questions, still constantly saying sorry, assuming the worse and holding my family together. i'm still the andrea that keeps writing in her blog, even though obvious lack of talent is a given. i'm still the same person that takes stupid risks like telling people she likes them, then regretting it, and then in the end being proud of myself and how i took a big leap. still the same old me that acts like a goofball, that wears her heart on her sleeve and that will never understand why guys ask "what's you sign?", as if it really will matter and make a difference if you are compatible zodiac wise or not.
i'm still me, but society has labeled me an adult. one who is now old enough to marry, finish school and give back to society. one that should have many many more responsibilities, as if getting older in age is the same as mentally maturing. 19 or not, i still act like a 12 year old, still party because i'm young and make an ass out of myself because i can. the only difference now is everything i do is legal as opposed to drinking under age.
happy birthday to all you out there, and remember age makes no difference, its just a way so society can brand you and control your actions better.
but all this talk aside, it must have been the best birthday ever!! haha great night with friends all around, great music and a bit too much to drink!!! thanks to everyone who helped me celebrate!! =)
2 Comments:
Well I would like to start by wishing you again a happy birthday. I hope that zodiac sign thing wasn’t directed at me because I never use that as a line. Lol I mean I might ask that later on but it’s not like I take that stuff seriously. Being the same Andrea isn’t a bad thing. Actually I think it’s a good thing. Still confused but come on what women aren’t? That’s another story HAHA (I could go on forever about that one). I just wanted to say that this Andrea that takes risk, acts like a goofball, and wears her heart on her sleeve is great and I don’t think you should try to change it because then you would be boring. I don’t think your 30th birthday will change you Andrea and it shouldn’t.
Happy Birthday! Many happy returns, and may you have peace with the confusion. I don't think it goes away...
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