fuck it (as my friend would say it...)

in one of my religion courses this year my professor brought up the point that knowledge is power. and i agree with him. knowledge is power. it helps you prepare, knowing what is coming your way. its the forewarning for the storm. the knowledge of someone else feelings. whats in their heart and mind. what they are going through. what they think of you and feel too. my blog i guess is knowledge for some people. gives them power. by reading this people have the knowledge of my feelings, of whats going on in my head and heart. what i think of them and others. when i'm sad and when i'm happy.

something that my professor didn't say is that power can be taken away from you. if you are a king you can be killed or over ruled and there goes that power. for this sake, the sake of my blog, your power can be taken away by me not writing anymore. and so with that i'll say that this is my last blog on this page. i will no longer write here. i no longer want to give you this power of knowing when my heart aches, when i've given up, or when i'm happy. i don't want you to know how i feel and why i feel it. if its due to you or anyone else. i don't want you to know, mainly because if i say something (like my last few blogs) you will take it the wrong way and won't speak to me again.... i don't want to hurt a friendship or anything else i might be risking by writing here. good-bye.

and if you do need something to read i hear A Brave New World by Aldous Huxley is a good read...or try Bram Stoker's Dracula, equally good if not better (personally i find the latter better).